Been stuck at home everyday since Tuesday, doing a bit of studying. I'm going out of my mind from this. Dying to go out for a change of environment. Really miss hanging out with guys, eating together after training and talking cock. But can't seem to get anyone to go out with me :/ Well not everyone is so free like me right?
Anyway, all the staying at home and listening to music made me realise that my playlist are full of emo songs. Full of break-up, death, lonely, rejection, sad songs. (Btw not all are jay chou songs) But I can somehow relate to those songs very well, and it make me feel a bit emotional. But hey, this shows that I'm still alive right? Since young, I've been very emotional. It doesn't take much of my second brother to make me shed tears. If I didn't get what I want or get disapporved of, all he has to say was "Oh, gona cry gona cry" and then soon after I'll burst into tears. No matter how hard I try to hold my tears and not give him the satisfaction, I'll still end up crying in the end. Till now I cry easily though I've become immune from my brother's teasing. And everytime I cry, I feel like a wimp. So, there you go, now you know one of my weakness is being a bit emotional.
Ok, enough revaling a little about myself. Back to what I want to say. Ah yes, I got addicted to the song Jesus of Suburbia by Green Day. Kept listening to it all day. Sad but nice song anyway. Oh and one last thing. Dad's coming to S'pore soon to sort things out with me. It's gona be a showdown. I swear he'll regret it if he tries to force me.
Hm...thinking of getting an iPod. Better to go deaf than go insane. Night.
(21/06/09)
my second voice
- 12:17 AM