Sighhh...today was one of those really bad days. Talked with my dad twice today and both times we got into heated arguement. He wants me to come back home to settle the 'problem' that i'm having. In fact, it's not me who's having the problem. It's him. He has the constant need to control and have his hands on everything. Why can't he understand that i just want to be left alone. I'm tired of this. Tired of explaining all the time. Tired of meeting expectations. Tired of being an 'investment'. Tired of being shadowed and caged by my brothers' incompetence. Tired of my life. Sometimes i wish i could put an end to all this, but ppl around me are pulling me back. I can't bear to refelct my pain upon them. It'll be selfish of me. I'd rather make myself suffer than make those around me suffer. Well that's my life, live with it. Gotta stay strong. Can't be a hypocrite.
That's it for today. I hope i'll be better when i wake up again. Oh, and also hope that my thumb will heal by Monday. Night.
(7/5/09)
my second voice
- 11:14 PM